Surrounded by strangers

I've come to this epiphany lately that I seem to be surrounded by strangers. I feel like no body really knows me at all, and I have to accept that it is my fault. Owning a service-based business, I'm surrounded every single day by people who are on an acquaintence-level relationship with me. If they ask how my day is, they don't want a long, in depth analysis of my thoughts and desires, they want a "Good, how are you?".  Not that I'd expect any thing less, I mean you don't tell your cashier at Target that you didn't get accepted into your college of choice; but its very hard to remain socially accepted when you don't have friends in your life that you can relate to.  Since I've graduated high school, and left my job to start my own business, very few people have stayed in my life. Once I had my baby, even fewer people bothered to remain. I have my parents, my fiance, and a few good friends, but its been so long since I've had a best friend. Someone who really gets me, and has my back as much as I have theirs. I think part of this has sparked from the fact that I've certainly lost myself. I used to have a clear definition of who I was and what I want to be. Now, all I feel is old and tired. Stretched so thin, I'm not even a person anymore, just a string of facades to get thru the day.
I'm going to "pause" this blog for a bit, be back later